Hallelujah!

I'm very excited to report that Madeline did not have any screaming fits last night, and only one the prior evening!!! Success! I'm still not getting much sleep, but hey, I'll take 3 hours over nothing.

Yesterday ended up being an extremely busy day. I had an OB check up in the morning, Madeline's pediatrician appointment (which also led to an hour trip to Target), along with our typical daily routine. It was nonstop. Plus, I took Madeline with me, so it was my first adventure out alone with her....and it was fine. I don't feel so confined now know that I can actually successfully take her out on my own.

She now weighs 5 lbs, 11 oz and is 19.5 inches long. Another great appointment. She also has been violently spitting up the past 2 days, so the doctor prescribed her Zantac (hence the Target run) and stated that it's probably due to reflux, which is also common during this age, and can explain her nightly screaming fits. She said to try it for a week, if there hasn't been any progress, then she's just crying just to cry. Plus, it will take a few days to really start working. I'm hoping it helps with the spit up. Anyway, she goes back to the pediatrician in 2 weeks, unless the spitting up continues, then they'll do an ultrasound late this week. Here's are two photos from yesterday:

She also lost her stump last night. And, her hair has significantly lightened since birth. It was dark brown, and now it's turning into a medium to light brown. I'm just hoping she doesn't get my natural hair color, which is an ugly ash color. Seriously, there isn't much color in it...it's not dark blonde, it's not light brown...it's just ugly ash.

I haven't lost any more weight since my last post. At the weight I'm currently at, I usually have to workout pretty hard and really watch my diet to get down where I want to be. So, still 6.5 lbs to go. I'm not sure if breastfeeding will help with the last pounds, since I haven't lost since my last post. I have lost 1 inch, so only 1 more inch to go, too. I was hoping to start walking this week, but I'm still way too sore, so maybe next week? I certainly hope so. I hate being inactive!

Peace

......is what we are needing right now. The past few days have been extremely difficult. Madeline's screaming sessions have turned into 24 hour screaming fits. Which means, absolutely no sleep. We can get her to calm down if we hold her, but I'm trying to figure out if she's screaming just to scream or if it's because she wants to be held. And, we can't hold her 24 hours per day, plus, I don't want her screaming to be held...I don't know, I'm at a loss. I'm just exhausted.

"Sleep when the baby sleeps" can go out the window. She's gotta be exhausted, too, since she might be sleeping 6 hours in a 24 hour period. Every time I try to nap, she starts screaming again. It's like she knows I want sleep and she spoiling it for me on purpose. Of course, I'm kidding, but that's what it feels like right now..lol.

Mornings and evenings have also proven to be difficult because of all the basic things that need to get done like cooking, eating, bathing, feeding Madeline, pumping, etc. Some are better than others depending on how the day goes. If I didn't get any sleep the night before, by the time 4pm hits, I am so tired and hit a wall of exhaustion.

I really don't know how working moms go back to work 4-6 weeks after delivery. I think I'd go insane or have a nervous breakdown. Seriously.

Breastfeeding is so challenging, too. It's just so darn time consuming. I completely understand why some mothers choose formula feeding over breastfeeding. It's 100x easier. In the morning, I've been giving Madeline a bottle of my pumped milk to save a little time, but it's not always a time saver. I'm going to keep pushing through. My goal is to breastfeed for a minimum of 3 months, max of 6, but I'm hoping I can stockpile some pumped milk so it can go longer.

Speaking of breast vs. formula feeding..something odd I came across while pregnant. Everyone always asked if I would be breastfeeding or formula feeding. This is such a personal question. I just find it odd that most people think that it's an appropriate to ask. Now, don't get me wrong, I don't care if close family/friends ask (I don't mind at all), but I would have random people ask me..some that I hadn't even met before. And, it was always the first question. I guess it's just not something I ever thought to ask someone before. I just find it bizarre.

Each day has flown by. Most days I don't even know what day it is. Tommy goes back to work this week, but he's off tomorrow and works from home on Tuesday/Wednesday. That being said, Thursday and Friday should be interesting for me. But, at least he has a 3 day weekend so I kinda get a small test run before having to go a full week by myself.

For a weight loss update, I've lost another 3lbs since my last post. I'm 6.5 lbs away from my goal weight. I also went ahead and pre-ordered Tracy Anderson's Post Natal Workout (available Sept. 4) and Tracy Anderson's Cardio Dance (available Oct. 2) to help get toned again. I would like to start walking this week, but I'm still pretty sore...not sure if I'll be able to do it just yet. I might give it a trial run this evening if I find the time for a brief 20 minutes.




Of course, I can't blog without adding photos of Madeline. I'm trying to take photos daily, but it's hard with the way things are going right now. I know eventually things will calm down (I pray), but right now is such a challenge.  Here are a few photos I took of her the other day:

I'm really hoping that tonight goes much better for us. We shall see!

So Happy!

I posted yesterday about my Bellefit garment and the 1 inch inside latches that I'd like to get to...well I'm there! I noticed yesterday afternoon that it was loose on the current setting, and sure enough, I was able to move it over to the final 1 inch. It seems kinda crazy since when I first attempted to wear it on Saturday, I literally was stuffing myself into it like a sausage. It barely fit me.

I also lied. I wasn't going to jump on a scale until next Tuesday, but during our Target run, I decided to go ahead and just buy one. Guess what? I'm back at my preconception weight! I ended up gaining 20 lbs during the entire pregnancy. Now, I still need to lose 5-10lbs. I'm aiming for the 10lbs. I had a gained a little weight last fall.

Of course, I know I'm also retaining a lot of water right now due to swelling. It can take weeks to go away. I'm just so thrilled. I know the last pounds are always the most difficult to lose, so it may take me some time.

Our Target run was successful. Although, on the next run we need to use the stroller. This time, we just set the carrier/carseat inside the shopping cart (The Chicco Keyfit doesn't allow you to put it in the upper purse area).

These are photos taken before our run to Target!

I also want to share my favorite photos from Madeline's hospital photoshoot. It's amazing that she already looks so different since last week. I just picked out my favorite photos and posted them below. The hat in first photo was actually made by Sandra (aka So-So)!

It's feeding time for me. And I'm off....

1 Week, 1 Day

The past two nights have been significantly better. However, Madeline is still colicky during the evening. The screaming is lasting around 1-2 hour periods, instead of the full 6-8 hours. I'm still exhausted. Her feeding schedule is just wearing me out. We definitely think she has her days/nights mixed up. It makes sense, because she was most active in my stomach between 9:00pm-Midnight, and that's generally when the screams begin.

The explosive poops have also begun. She dirtied 3 outfits yesterday...lol. I'm just hoping the poop stains come out of her clothing. I washed them, but you can still see the stains. We have to use baby detergent, so if anyone has any recommendations for the stains, please send them my way!

Yesterday, Madeline was 1 week old. Below is her 1 Week photo. I had originally planned a super cute outfit, but she pooped all over it. So, this is what we get. She still looks adorable.

I'm also really liking my Bellefit compression garment. I can tell a big difference in just a couple of days of wear. It's recommended that you wear it at least 12-24 hours per day. It's comfortable during the day, but I've been taking it off at night because it's digging into my ribs because of the way I lay down. It barely fit me the first day I started wearing it (Saturday, I think), and now it's stretching out a bit. There is another closure I can use 1 inch tighter...I'm going to be so excited when I can use it! There are three different styles: pull up, zipper, and corset. I went with the corset because I didn't know whether or not I'd be having a c-section (corset is recommended for c section mommas).

I reluctantly decided to take my measurements this morning. Since I don't have a scale at home (on purpose), I need a baseline. Basically, I need to lose 2 inches to get back where I want to be. I think it'll be totally achievable if I'm able to start getting workouts in next week. I think I might weigh myself at Madeline's pediatrician appointment next Tuesday. Surely, they won't mind? Or, they might think I'm absolutely crazy! At least, that will give me a full two weeks since delivery just to see where I'm at.

I know I probably shouldn't be too concerned about the weight, but I want my body back so bad. And, I know it can go either way with breastfeeding. Some women gain weight, some women lose. I hope I am one of the lucky ones who lose. Everyone tells me I'll lose, but every person's body is different. I've also been eating much better, too. I've really only been craving healthy foods, which is a big help. I haven't even wanted the cheesecake, cupcakes, cookies, etc. Of course, if it's sitting in front of me...I'd probably want it.

Tomorrow, Tommy and I are going to attempt a Target run with Madeline. I need a practice run with him first, before going out on my own. I'm going to be so nervous the first time I have to go out with her by myself.

Where Does the Day Go?

Oh my goodness. I cannot believe how unbelievably busy a newborn keeps you. Granted, I knew it would be work, but wow. It also doesn't help that Madeline has been up all night the past two nights with severe colic. It's awful...nothing works. She screams bloody murder....hours and hours on end. I'm really hoping this phase does not last long. We are exhausted. The screams are so loud that we can't really take "shifts." Sunday night the colic lasted for 8 full hours, and last night 6 hours.

To give you an idea of how busy each day is...I thought I'd outline today for you. Keep in mind, Madeline feeds around the clock every three hours...and a feeding usually takes one hour long. In addition, everything is taking me longer to do since I'm still weak. I'm not included normal everyday tasks in here, either.

7am-8am: Diaper change, feeding
8:am-8:30am: Pumping Session
8:30am-9am: Shower (thank goodness)
9am-10am: Breakfast, light cleaning, laundry
10am:10:40am: Blowdry hair, get myself dressed, fix hair, etc.
10:40am-Noon: Sponge bath for Madeline, change diaper, clothes, feeding session
11am-Noon: Feeding Session
Noon-1pm: Lance and Shellie visit 
1pm-2pm: Feeding Session
2pm-3pm: Pediatrician Appointment
3pm-4pm: Naptime (FINALLY)
4pm-5pm: Feeding Session
5pm-5:30pm: Pumping Session
5:30pm-6pm: Dinner
6pm-6:30pm: Bathtime for myself (I have to take a nightly bath)
6:30pm-7pm: Laundry
7pm-8pm: Finally a Break (Hence that I'm blogging now) 
9am-10pm: Feeding Session
10pm and onward: Attempt Sleep, Calm Colic (hopefully, not), Feed every 3 hours

And Repeat.

See? Pretty busy.  It's difficult to even get a phone call in and taking Sophie out. I'm pooped.

Lance and Shellie were kind enough to bring us both lunch and dinner from Puffy Muffin today. It was so delicious! Thanks, guys!

At today's Pediatrician appointment, Madeline gained 2 ounces since Friday, so that's great! Other than the horrible colic, she doesn't have any other issues/concerns.

I also said that I was going to start posting my post partum photos. Well, I took two today. I haven't jumped on the scale just yet. I know I've probably lost at least 10 lbs, but I want to wait it out before I actually start weighing myself. I'll start working out again slowly in another week and a half. (I have no idea when I'll be able to fit workouts in...lol). I also started wearing a Bellefit compression garment to help my tummy get back to normal.  So, I'm cheating in my photos, really. I'll start taking bare belly shots next week. My stomach has drastically gone down...I look how I did around 20-22 weeks pregnant, I guess. And my stomach is pillow-y. I know it's not going to get back to how it was. I'll probably have the standard Mom pooch - just part of it!

6 Days Post Partum Photos:

For some reason, my iPhone makes my face look long and weird...lol.

Speaking of post partum, my hair is disgusting. It's greasy at the top, then dry and stringy throughout. The night sweats have also kicked in, and meltdowns again. My hormones are just going bonkers right now. Hopefully, my hormones will calm down in a few weeks.

I know I keep bouncing around, but Nana bought Madeline the cutest bracelet. It's adorable. See below:

And that's it for now. I get to relax for another 10 minutes, then it's feeding time!

 

We're Home!

Madeline Kate and I were able to arrive home yesterday afternoon. I really thought I'd be able to udpate my blog throughout the week, but I ended up having major complications after labor and delivery.

But, first, let's get to the most important information - Madeline. She was born Tuesday morning at 11:36am, weighing 5lbs, 12 oz and 19 inches long. A perfectly healthy little girl! We were so thrilled that she didn't have any issues (other than low blood sugar right when she was born, but an easy fix).
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Since there's been a lot that has happened during the past week, I thought I'd start by telling Madeline's Birth Story..beginning Monday night.

We checked into the hospital at 5pm on Monday evening. I was nervous, anxious and excited. They hooked me up to all the necessary monitors before they decided to start the induction process with the first dose of Cervadil. Everything looked great, and we began the Cervadil at 7pm. I didn't really feel anything, except a few contractions here and there, and I was having horrible indigestion. The nurses kept a close eye on me and were monitoring my progress. My blood pressure was high (abnormal for me), but I was convinced it was due to nerves. Hours later, my indigestion was absolutely awful, so they gave me an IV of Prevacid.

During the night, my indigestion became quite painful, my blood pressure was still high, and the contractions were picking up. At 6am Tuesday morning, my OB came in and decided to check on me. I was 1 centimeter dilated, and we went ahead with the Pitocin induction. My contractions started to pick up about an hour after the Pitocin, and my heartburn and indigestion had subsided.

Around 10am, my OB decided it was time to break my water. At this time, I was 3 centimeters dilated and making steady process. And oh my gosh, getting my water broken hurt so bad because I was fully effaced, and not on any pain meds at this time. Next, my OB said to go ahead with the epidural.  I was thinking, that this was probably going to be a very long day.

I was nervous about the epidural, but they hid everything from me so I couldn't see anything. The epidural took about thirty minutes from start to finish. The hardest thing about the epidural was staying still during contractions. They were picking up significantly and becoming pretty painful. But, as soon as the epidural was in, I didn't have any more pain. It was amazing. I was checked again for dilation and at this time I was 5 centimeters. My blood pressure was still unusually high.

After the epidural, I felt great. It was a weird feeling everything being numb. About an hour later, they decided to check again, and I was 10 centimeters dilated! We were so shocked. The nurses asked me to do a practice push, then made me stop because Madeline was on her way! They called my OB, prepared my room, and we were getting ready. We made the calls to our parents to head to the hospital asap.

I pushed 3 times, and Madeline was born. It was not painful at all since I couldn't feel anything. I didn't even know that I was pushing...I just kinda had to guess how to push.

After Madeline was born, the nurses checked her out, and decided that she needed formula due low blood sugar, so they whisked her away for a few moments, then layed her in my arms. Tommy and I were so excited. I was able to feed, get cleaned up, then our parents were allowed into the room.

Everyone was so excited. The doctors and nurses were still monitoring my status, and I was fine (actually, I felt awesome), but my blood pressure was still unusually high. Our parents stayed for awhile, then gave us some privacy. Then, the horrible indigestion and heartburn kicked in again. And, I mean horrible. I couldn't talk, much less open my eyes much. It was seriously the worst feeling I have ever encountered. The doctor immediately ordered me a cocktail of Lidocain, Belladonna, and Maylox, as well as a pain medication through my IV. The cocktail was definitely potent, and would give me immediate relief. However, it took over an hour to get the meds, because the ER was having to mix it by hand for me. Let me to tell you, I have never experienced pain like this before. I seriously would have rather been in a coma. It was awful.

As soon as the drugs were administered, I had instant relief. The doctor came back in, and told me that I was going to have to be placed on magnesium and blood pressure medication. I ended up developing HELPP, a rare and most severe form of preclampsia. The indigestion and high blood pressure beginning on Monday night were signs that I had HELPP, but they weren't aware that it was as severe at as it was until I got my blood work results back.

I was put on the magnesium, and felt okay until the next morning. On Wednesday, I was so loopy and out of it, it was seriously awful. The side effects hit me all at once when I was attempting to eat breakfast (prior to breakfast on Wednesday morning, I hadn't been able to eat anything since Monday night, plus once I started the magnesium, I could only drink 50mg of water per hour). I could barely even hold my fork. And, I started to cyring, and freaking out. I just didn't think I'd feel that bad.

I was given the highest dosage of magnesium available, and once I was off of it, it slowly started to fade. I was told that evening that my HELPP Syndrome was so bad that if I hadn't been induced, I would have likely had liver failure and/or bled out by Thursday. Sometimes, things happen for a reason. All this time, I was so worried about Madeline, and I never thought anything would be wrong with me. I'm so thankful that everything is okay. It's very scary to know that both of us could have easily died, had I not been induced Monday. I'm sure if I wasn't, I would have just assumed that my indigestion and heartburn wasn't a big deal and just dealt with it...that is until Tuesday's episode.

They continued to monitor me, and decided to release both Madeline and I on Thursday (my labs  significantly improved and my blood pressure lowered). Tommy and I were both exhausted and anxious to get home. Since we've made it home, I still feel loopy, exhausted, and I'm quite sore from the delivery. We are all taking it easy. Madeline is doing great, feeding well, and is just absolutely a joy. Sophie is doing well with Madeline, too. She's still not quite sure what to think.

Tommy has also been excellent during everything. He's been such a great Dad and big help. I'm thankful to have such a loving and attentive husband. Our parents have been wonderful, too. We are truly, truly blessed.

We haven't had any other visitors just yet - I'm still feeling pretty crappy to be honest, but I know each day will get better. Today, we had Madeline's pediatrician appointment, and all was well. She's now down to 5lbs, 4 oz, but it's completely normal to drop during the first week. We go back on Monday for a weight check. By then, my milk should come in and her weight should be increasing.

Going forward, I'll definitely be able to post more often! I've only spoken to our parents, my grandmother, and Bran and Michelle. Oh...wait. I have to share a video that Brandon and Michelle made for Madeline. Actually, I'll post it tomorrow. It is seriously the coolest video ever...and if you know my brother...it's so him. We love it!

Until tomorrow...I'm off to rest!

Here We Go...

Well, it's official. Tommy and I will be parents no later than tomorrow afternoon. I'm checking into the hospital this evening at 5pm to start my first round of induction medication. Unfortunately, they are not going to allow me to go back home...I'll have to stay at the hospital for the duration of the labor process.

From today's growth ultrasound, we found out that Madeline's abdominal measurements dropped back down to the 7th percentile (previously was 8th, then 20th, now 7th), so with the drop, they have decided to go ahead and attempt an induction.Her estimated weight is 5lbs, 12 oz (4lbs, 12 oz last month)...which would be only 1 lb gained if accurate, and is at the 8th percentile. During the last month of pregnancy, babies should be gaining anywhere from 1/2 lb - 1 lb each week. Of course, weights can also vary higher or lower.

I'm effaced, but not dilated at all, so we're not sure if the induction will take. There's a chance that we'll have to proceed with a c-section early in the morning (5-6am) if my body doesn't respond to the first round of medication. If it does, then they'll start with the Pitocin. If not, I'll go in for the dreaded c-section.

Oh, and guess what? My OB delivered on Friday. So, I'm delivering with a different OB whom I've met with beforehand. Thankfully, she's the one on call tonight and tomorrow, so at least I feel comfortable with her. But, today's appointment was a complete mess. First, they just had me down for the biophysical ultrasound...then the tech asked because she thought it was supposed to be a growth...then of course did the growth. Next, since my OB was out, they had me seeing the nurse practitioner since they thought it was just going to be the biophysical ultrasound results, etc. So, then after that, we had to wait on the "on call" doctor to make the ruling on the new measurements. It was frustrating...I haven't had any issues with my doctor's office and today was just not the day to have them. Thankfully, we have everything settled, scheduled, and I feel much more confident.

Tonight won't be too eventful. Tommy and I will just probably watch television in my hospital room all night and attempt to sleep. There is a chance that the first round of medication could go ahead and induce the labor completely (best case scenario) and we'd have her tonight, but I don't think that's going to be likely.

I'll try to update my blog when I can and post photos of Madeline!